Writing this blog has been something that has been on my heart lately. I’ve wanted a place where I can document life and moments and feelings. I have no intention of doing this for anyone but me to see it. Since moving to Texas life has been, simply put, hard. There have been tons and tons of lessons learned and challenges to overcome.
It’s been rewarding, don’t get me wrong. To hear so many people tell me how brave it is for us to pick up our lives and move half way across the country has given me a newfound confidence. I used to be the girl scared to go to the nail salon by myself, now I do so many things independently. With Kyle’s work hours I spend a lot of time by myself. Solo time by choice is a great and necessary thing for someone who is introverted, like myself. However, solo time when you’d rather be surrounded by others is not so great. I’ll admit I’ve done a terrible job at immersing myself in our new community. For a while after we moved I quickly slipped into a depression. I had a hard time leaving our apartment for anything other than work. I was having panic attacks daily, and stress eating way too much. Luckily we found the root of the problem and fixed it and I am seemingly, hopefully, on the up and up. I’m feeling much better than I have in months.
God is so good, and the way He shines in the darkest moments is incredible. I’m working on making God the main focus in my life again, and not letting the demons of my mind consume me. It is not worth the heart ache!
So, that has been life lately. In case you were wondering. The details of what goes on behind the camera of the gram and facebook are so messy. I’m constantly having to remind myself that everyone struggles with things no matter how perfect of a picture they paint on social media. Myself included. So thats why I made this blog. To show the messy side of life, the picture perfect side, and all in between. If you’ve made it this far, thanks for reading 😉